There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
a time to be born and a time to die
a time to plant and a time to uproot
a time to kill and a time to heal
a time to tear down and a time to build
a time to weep and a time to laugh
a time to mourn and a time to dance
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them...
... a time to be silent and a time to speak
a time to love and a time to hate
a time for war and a time for peace.
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I definitely feel like the Holy Spirit has been pressing this message on my heart lately. One of my goals lately is to learn how to be more lighthearted and not so dead serious all the time, and I definitely feel like this passage from Ecclesiastes is supporting this goal of mine. It all comes down to discerning again! Lots to learn about discerning and viewing situations and people with the heart of God.
This passage is just a reminder for me that despite all the sad, serious, silent times, there are also times to laugh, dance, and speak. Honestly, I know when to mourn, weep, and be silent. It's those more lighthearted activities and seasons that I feel like I've had myself block out - and now I am definitely on a journey to figure out why I've decided to disregard those seasons and reverse this psychological and spiritual behaviour of mine.
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Another part in the middle of this passage goes like this:
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing
a time to search and a time to give up
a time to keep and a time to throw away
a time to tear and a time to mend
And because I can't go too long without thinking of him, this verse just reminds me of my whole situation of what was and is. The seasons of embracing him are definitely gone, and now we have to refrain from embracing or being intimate with one another. But that's not to say that another season of embracing may come with another person for me. I feel like I am continuing to search for answers as to why he continues to act the way he is, but I honestly need to give things up to God at this point in life if I want my relationship with God to grow and myself to heal. I once had the chance to keep him, but having the relationship that we had, it was definitely best that we let it go. It was definitely best that we tore that bond, as emotionally brutal as that may sound, but it was necessary, at least for me, to go through this kind of healing and spiritual mending.
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