Ha... so I wrote "March" instead of "May" at first... Even though I know there's only eleven days of school days left for seniors, it still hasn't hit me yet that we're all going to be graduating and going our separate ways soon and never see one another again!
So yesterday I finally caught up with my daily piano routine which I haven't exactly done fora while (by the way, Landon Pigg's "Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop" and Ferryhalim's "Carrot Track" are in the same major). And for the longest time I've been trying to figure out why I sight read so horribly. This isn't exactly an excuse not to improve my sight reading, but I do listen to music differently than a lot of people do. And play it differently as well. When listening to music with words, I seldom listen to the lyrics. I recognize they're there, but I never really think about the meanings much, because I'm just listening to the melody of the song, or the background strings or piano or guitar or anything, because that's what I like about songs - the actual music. If it's some explicitive rap song or a song that has too much synthesized sounds in it, all I care about is the way it sounds. When having to play back classical or instrumental music that I've listend to, it's difficult to do so - or it just takes me a while to catch on. I listen to music as a flow of movement, kind of like (sorry for being cliche here) tall wheat grass swaying in the wind - freely and wherever the wind blows it. Not like all musicians don't listen to music this way, but they all have the abilitiy to perceive musical sounds as patterns - something that I can't seem to do because then it just feels like pressing pointlessly on pieces of black and white wood. But if I want to grow as a musiican, then I guess this is something I have to learn to do.
I need to remember to bring lots of post-its with me when I go off to college (yay my iPod just shuffled to a Tangled song~) because they are so convenient! Whoever invented them is a genius.
Today at school I watched the "30 Days minimum wage" thing for the second time. Last time I watched it was last year when I was stupid and naive to the world. But watching it again this year made me really realize a lot of things. Like no matter how much we wish it didn't happen, racial discrimination still exists. People will be judged just because of their appearance, culture, and origin. It's sad, but inevitably, I will judge too. I just try my best not to act according to my likely-to-be false judgements. And I say all this because white people will always have a better chance of finding work. Not to offend anyone or anything, but why is it that they have to be the dominant race? It all just feels really unfair. And I really don't know how I'd feel at the moment if my race was the dominant race - but either way, no one group of people should be superior nor inferior to another.
One thing I've learned this year ar things regarding social norms. The world simply revolves around asking questions and getting answers, yet everything is still really complicated. To be honest, last year I was really disappointed in this truth. Because if society is this simple with its asking and answering, then why bother? I also realize how much I hate small chat (with thanks to discussions of social norms in British Literature for this realization). I just don't like the idea of such shallow talk. But if anyone is to survive in the social world, sometimes small chat is the way to go. And there are also a lot of social norms that a lot of people need to learn (including myself, but seriously - there are also people, especially Monta Vista students, that need to learn to grow up).
This devo book I've been reading has also been relating to my life a lot. It has been going over topics such as being slow to anger, and using God and love to solve problems, which I haven't been exactly doing with home issues.
Okay that's it for today I guess.
I really, really need a new, nice-looking notebook.
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