2nd World Mission @__@..

Omg so I have a LOOOOOOT to blog about. Either get like a cup of coffee, sit down, and brace yourself to a long reading, or just ignore this and read when you have time.

So to be honest, this is the first time I've gone to anything church-like in three weeks - -"... 可惡的SAT's. But I've been reminding myself everyday not to stray away from my God, my only father. Lately I've been really allowing himself to see Him also as a "Father God", not just "God", not just my Saviour and my Lord, but actually a father - a dad. But yea, I think today's event that Yahni invited me to again was a... "good start" to return home again :]

Haha so about the actual church building itself @__@. Well like Yahni told me, it's a bunch of churches mixed together to do World Missions, but every month they find some church to hold the event. I liked this place better than the last time? Haha D: I don't know. It's because... I've seen it before. In a dream - -"... Like the stage.. The white wall, the decorations, and the lit up glass window. I really did . Like part of it. So yea, that was really nice to know x] There was this cross "hanging" in the air too hehe it took me a while to figure out how it was floating - -". And the church was smaller and people sat closer together. But it didn't make much a difference anyway because not a lot of people attended in the first place - -"

So... like the first time, their worship service was SUPER long - my feet started hurting a lot - -". Yahni was gonna leave early cause she didn't feel good but D: I don't get why she stayed. She wasn't feeling very well so ahh *O* I feel bad again haha :[ But yea, and then some speaker began talking about the Middle East and the circumstances there but for some reason I couldn't pay attention - -" I just heard stuff about tensions between Pakistan and India, and the Talibans raiding Pakistan or something. Since when?! And then refugees running away into Afghanistan with nothing, just themselves (and like, clothes - -"). But yea :[ It's very heartbreaking because these lands were originally the Holy Land which God had made for his people, but it's become one of the most anti-Christian places on Earth. Preaching there is very dangerous, and I really admire the courage and the faith missionaries have in order to go to those places. If I were to go too, I wouldn't feel afraid at all. Things may seem threatening and circumnstances may seem dangerous. But hey, with God having my back, I don't really feel like anything should be stopping me from doing His Great Commission.

And then there was this girl's testimony. Yee she had like a guy name, but it was a girl, haha. It was really interesting, how fast she went face to face with God. I guess she had a horrible past, but everything's okay now since she's met God. It's reeeeally amazing, what God can do. And Satan's power? o___o like, what in the world is that? haha.. what power? God can touch the lives of ANYONE. But unfortunately many people don't want to believe that, which is the job of us who are able to perceive such love to make sure this feeling of His Love "spreads like wildfire".

The actual message, I guess was my favourite because it was the main thing of the event? xP Well, there isn't really a main thing. In a meal, there really isn't a main thing. The worship and the testimony, I guess, were appetizers. The message was the actual meal, and then the "small" groups were dessert xP. But I don't really get the point of the message? It was really a bunch of things mixed together. I was really in awe to see the speaker so passionate in whatever he was talking about.

OOH YEEA the speaker talked about his mission trip in Syria, and how God had worked amazing miracles during their time there. One event was super amazing. His mission group only had eight people, and in all they had only brought $150, just enough for food and possibly some small transportation, but no lavish spendings (obviously, it's a mission!). But every night, they had to find some house to stay in, and like, 順便 preach the gospel to the family. However, there was a particular night where they were having a hard time finding a house to stay in, and it was around 10:00 pm and it was DARK. Like, they definitely knew God was going to give them a place to stay, but it was getting rather late. But THEN, they came across this woman who was interested in this bunch of Asian missionaries. She was really curious because they were in a rather remote area, and there was just this random group of Asian people there. And she offered help, and the missionaries said that they were just finding a place to stay for the night. And the woman's HUSBAND was the HOTEL MANAGER of this really expensive hotel! And the missionaries got these two rooms for FREE for a whole night! AMAZING, RIGHT? *O* God is so cool.

And the message speaker also talked about.. I guess, our place in God's family. I really liked how he said how God's love is constant... but it got me thinking to math. But now, in math when I think of constants, I can think of GOD'S LOVE NOW! Yeee more stuff to remind me of my Father ^^; And the speaker also told us something that I never even realized! Hey, if we're all children of God, and Jesus is the SON of God, then.. JESUS IS OUR BROTHER!!! PRETTY COOL, EH??! X]] Sigh I wish I did understand the trinity more though. There isn't really a 'main' part of the trinity. I know all three are God - the Holy Spirit is the spirit of God living within US, Jesus is God.. basically "materialized" so that we could see Him, and God is just.. God. Haha.

Yee and then after this there was another worship thing @___@.

and THEN it was small groups! Yahni was in group five and I was in group three but I just went to Yahni's group anyway - -".... I think the kitchen area was supposed to have two groups? But they just like, merged together into this rather big one so I couldn't hear what the people were saying on the other side of the ... place we were sitting. Most of us were in high school, so I was pretty comfortable with that. However, there was this one working man - with a wife and kids. And we went around asking for prayer requets, mostly for our family or ourselves. The main thing this working man wanted was to pray for his mother - but not just "his mother", but to pray for his mother, name here. .__. Yee, I know how it was pronounced (I think), but it wasn't really an English name, so I'm not gonna attempt to spell it out. But his main thing was that, people have names, too. Instead of just praying for the "workingman's mother", we can actually pray for that person. This has got me thinking to calling people "the girl with glasses" or the "guy with crutches" kind of thing. It's not bad or insulting, and sometimes we really don't know the names. But when you do describe these kind of things, don't do it so that it kind of has a "label" kind of tone. Which is why I really dislike Mr. Catrette - because he doesn't even care to know his students' names and just asks them to place their ID numbers on all their papers. We're not freakin robots with serial numbers, gosh. We're PEOPLE. We're people made in the image of God!! (So how in the world could we have ascended from hydrogen gas to a species with high intellect and deep emotions who can even perform miracles through the name of God? .___. loser evolutionists)

Haha and after Yahni and I were done partner praying we basically started talking about school? And prom? haha x___x... Just... IF YOU FEEL LIKE ASKING YAHNI TO PROM, DON'T BOTHER TRYING. Yeea and we talked about a bunch of stuff too, but those are way too personal to post on here - -

And THEN there was another short worship thing, but it didn't go very long. And then the program ended and their next one is I don't know when some Saturday in April - -"...

But my reflections of the people that attended the program changed super fast. In the beginning, I just saw a bunch of pretty girls with straight facial expressions, which kind of intimidated me. And it intimidated even more because I'm like, the only non-Korean person there - -"... Well, that was a teenager, anyway. I don't think the workingman was Korean, haha. I don't know, I've just been so biased of Korean churches so long that I've refused to dig down deeper into the actual people. Not every church is perfect, and there still are churches that I don't think are very God-fearing, but I forget sometimes that some churches really do have a huge, God-fearing heart of service. I ended up as seeing most of the people really nice, friendly, and really really love God. Most of them, anyway - -"... some of them still don't have a good impression on me, but those were mostly the guys that I saw wayy after the program. And I only saw like, four people I recognized from last November? There was that girl that was at the sign up table, and then the speaker who did announcements last November, and then two people from my small group last time. It actually took me a while to recognize those two. Mostly because of their hairstyles and the way they dressed. But hey, my hairstyle and clothing was wayy different from last time too, so yea, it's not my fault I couldn't recognize them? xP

But UGH - all of this talk about people and people's lives at the church aren't really the big deal. The main deal was their "BACK TO JERUSALEM" Mission! To get the Holy Nation back to its feet! I had forgotten how serious it was that God's originally intended Holy Nation has converted into a land of hatred and straying away from God. The quicker we can spread His word, the quicker He can come, and bring everyone who believes in Him and all He does to peace - not on Earth, but Home in Heaven. I really want to do go on such a mission trip - to go to places where the gospel is rather unheard of, and talk to the people about it! Tonight I suddenly didn't feel so comfortable with talking with strangers, and I feel like if God did call me to such a mission, I would do it with confidence in God (doii) to work in me and feel unafraid with any kind of communication. I would not be afraid of any dangers, because I know that my purpose in such places has something backing it up that is more powerful than any kinds of those dangers.

Yeeea @________@...

To all my junior friends at MVHS: Don't feel stressed, don't feel sad, don't feel bad that your grades aren't what you expect them to be. Try your best, and if your best isn't good enough, then hey - it's not what God has made you to do. We have an entire lifetime to discover how God wants us to live for Him, and to carry out His Great Commission now. I know it may seem that all colleges want to see is grades and GPA and SAT scores. But you know what? COMPANIES could care less about what COLLEGES you go to. Ironic, eh? Monta Vista teachers have graduates ranging from San Jose State University to Standford, but they all do the same job of teaching. Same with any other kind of company or corporation. They probably know that Stanford kids are smarter than San Jose State kids - but it's the actual knowledge and skill they want - not the reputation. If you think that you have many problems in your life that seem unsolved, don't complain to God with "Hey God, I have a big problem". Instead, go "Hey problem, I have a BIG GOD".

Oh and then Yahni had a World Mission Staff meeting? I couldn't really understand what the lady was saying. I wasn't even sure if she was Korean or not, because she had this super strange accent that I've never heard any Korean person talk in - -"... But yea, she was Korean. I just wasn't sure of what she was saying - "internal and external team"? Apparently, Yahni was part of the internal team or something, but no one was doing the work today. WHY? Well, like I said earlier, Yahni wasn't feeling too well today (and she has a cold @___@ ahh). And Yahni had to explain herself to the entire staff of how she feels that if you're drained out (kind of), it's hard to put heart and effort into the work you need to do. But the lady didn't agree, and said that no matter the circumnstances, you should always put your heart into your work.

I kind of somehow disagree with both of them xP. I mean like, yes, you do need to put heart into your work - something that you have promised to put much commitment in. And even if you're tired sometimes, you should still feel the heart to do those things because you're enthusiastic about committing to it. HOWEVER, I know Yahni basically does like, a bunch of behind the scenes stuff, like powerpoint slide switching and .. yea. I don't know about Yahni, but that kind of job might drain myself from the actual purpose of what I'm trying to do for other people sometimes. I would get so sucked into the technology of trying to get timing perfect, and forget that hey - this is a worship service! I'm supposed to be doing this for God, not for other people to see some random LED light shining on a white piece of cloth. But the point is, I am in full agreement of what Yahni did today to relax and rest a bit - to be one of the actual audience members and devote every minute of her time today during the event to wine down. I personally think she needed the rest. And just because she's just did something like this once doesn't mean that she'll repeat it, either. But I'm definitely sure Yahni will feel much better next time :]


Umm yea.
So I have to do AP week 8, read Bailey 38, study for a quiz that my math teacher never really taught us the content of, and do an APUSH FRQ - -".... 屁. Actually I think I'm gonna do AP week 8 on Wednesday night, haha - -" Just to lay off a bit of the work load. Next week I also need to manage my time of how I'm going to do my photo project! UGH. I'm going to be going in the photo room every lunch of next week. And 梅乾 and I still need to do the stupid flags. And I feel really bad for leaving 梅乾 alone :[ So 梅乾, don't think I hate you or anything - -"...

Okay I think
I'm done.

& YAHNI - I hope you went home early and got a good night's rest D: Get your prom dress tomorrow and show me, please ^^


GOOD NIGHT & GOD BLESS :]


... I just found my 1st BTJ blog, too. It's also super long xP
http://xnru.blogspot.com/2009/11/so.html