"Intolerance"

Okay so I have to admit. I don't know why or how. Being a conservative Christian is good in that it ensures I am fully devoted to God and His Word. However, lately I've been refusing to listen to like... "the sub rules" of the rules that God has given us, and being rather strictly interpretive.

Umm I'm not going to trash talk the pastor or whatever, but for a long time I thought that those who had never had a chance to listen to God's word would never be able to go to Heaven. But the only part I didn't believe was that what about babies that die in the womb? For sure, they don't go into Hell. And then the pastor said that those who have never heard of the Gospel will never be able to spend time with God. So for a long time, this is what I actually believed. But thankfully, last night my mother showed me a passage of the Bible discussing something like this. It's just that for those who have never heard of His Word, God will judge them according to the laws put into place during their time. If those people followed the just laws of their land of the time, but have never had a chance to hear of Jesus, they will be granted eternity with God. Yea. I forgot what Book that was in. But I'm so like - -".. IF THE BIBLE DOESN'T SAY IT THEN I DON'T BELIEVE IT - -".. But the Bible does say it!! x___x However, for those who do follow the laws of their time, but refuse to have anything to hear anything of the Gospel, they will not be granted eternity with Christ. - -" This worries me, because I am a good chance for a number of friends to get to know God, and I surely don't want them to be suffering in Hell for the rest of eternity. And even part of the Bible says that people like me are responsible for those who need a chance to hear the Gospel. So AHH *O* I must be more spiritually active in His Great Commission.

Oh yea and I forgot to talk about something from last night's BTJ thing. During small groups, the leader told us to pray about the Bay Area. And I was like o__o.. Bay Area? What's wrong with the Bay Area? Yeah, we can use some of our abundance of money to help nations, but... other than that, what's wrong? But when I was done praying, one of the people praying out loud said "atheist movement". o__________o... We're in an athiest movement?! The most I know about is this whole Proposition 8 thing. But then I came to think of it, the Bay Area is really getting away from having any kind of faith. I'm really worried about California D: Lots of people are starting to move out because of the stupid budget cuts, and people are just moving out of America because... well cause America has just been so stupid - -" While BTJ is bringing the Gospel back to the Middle East, America is draining away from Christian faith, too D:

So basically here's my confession.
I have been a bit intolerant lately. And 我媽說的對，自己讀聖經有點不好。我會用自己的想法來interpret聖經所寫的。So she asked me why I haven't been to Sunday School, or youth group. Well I'm not sure about Sunday School, but like I've said before, I do think our youth group is a bit too clique-y. I'm just not so sure that my church is the right kind of atmosphere to come in contact with God anymore. It doesn't mean I should run away, but how am I supposed to fix everything? D: Should I begin going to youth group again?

But yea D: Christians are not intolerant. It really depends on the situations. And we don't just make up the terms for the situations - the exact rules are in the Bible itself. The Bible really is the key to living life. And if you disagree with us, point something out in the Bible. We could be wrong (but we're usually not *O*), or you could just be interpreting it in a matter that it's not supposed to be percieved.

:[ I really want to learn Hebrew now, haha. It's the true language that the Bible first came to be - without any of the twisting of translations or really cliche phrasings. There has also long been this rumor going around that King James (KJV @__@) tweaked some parts of the Bible. So just to be safe, I really want to know the Bible in its nascent from. But then my mom says I have to go to some ministry school or whatever - -".. I just want to learn Hebrew for now! And hey, I have a huge interest in languages, so why not just learn it?

Okay I think I
blog too much.
Ah well :]
Blogging is good for the soul.