Time and Youth

both of which are very precious things.  And both, honestly speaking, I still have a lot of.

However, I feel I'm not using the two too efficiently.  

I feel very sad, not having a lot of time to myself this past quarter.  I mainly categorize myself as a Christian, musician, and photographer - yet because of school and work I haven't had the time to really act on these descriptions of myself.  I really want to take two days off of work, but I'll stick with just taking off one for now.

I haven't been hanging out with a lot of my close friends either and that actually makes me quite depressed.

I just miss having time for everyone and everything, and I know it's only going to get worse unless I think of how to arrange it better.

I also feel pathetic not doing more things in my youth, going to more places, meeting more people.  Why am I still shy from time to time?  I know it's impossible to please everyone so why am I beginning to care what people think again?  I feel like my youth is just rotting here in this area studying something for the sake of security.

Well for starters, on Monday at work I'll request Thursdays off.  And sort of adding some New Year's resolutions and all, I'm going to try my best to get back to people.  Sometimes I feel reluctant because I'm tired or busy but I feel that getting back to people as soon as I'm available really shows that you care and are concerned about them.  

Let's hope the first quarter of 2014 is a hell of a lot better than 2013.