You seem to be very comfortable in and love expressing your feelings. Which is an interesting contrast to me, I guess... this is why I know at least I'll be fine if you do agree to go through with this.
And if you do agree to go through with this, it will be a lot harder on you than it will be for me, partly because of my faith that keeps me in place as well as certain aspects of my personality. Plus, you seem to be a lot more fascinated with me than I am with you. Granted, you know your feelings are very well reciprocated, but I can obviously sense a strong imbalance of feelings.
I'm just glad I'm finally free of the temptation to want to say yes to dating you again. Dating you isn't the bad thing. My sister made a good analogy with people standing on chairs... in a good/close relationship, the Christian is on top of the chair, while the non-Christian is on the floor. It's easy for the non-Christian to pull the Christian down and a lot more difficult for the Christian to pull the non-Christian up. I never have plans of converting anyone, anyways. The most I can do is share my faith and allow the Holy Spirit to convict a person. I'm not saying you would pull me down, but I would probably allow myself to be pulled down in some way if I were to get that close to you.
I just honestly praise God that this commotion in my heart has finally gone away and that I am at peace again. Granted, you still consume my thoughts a lot, but all I can do is wait for your answer now. If you agree, praise God. If you don't agree, then praise God also. I will just be one of the weirdest girls you have ever had feelings for.
And if you do agree to go through with this, it will be a lot harder on you than it will be for me, partly because of my faith that keeps me in place as well as certain aspects of my personality. Plus, you seem to be a lot more fascinated with me than I am with you. Granted, you know your feelings are very well reciprocated, but I can obviously sense a strong imbalance of feelings.
I'm just glad I'm finally free of the temptation to want to say yes to dating you again. Dating you isn't the bad thing. My sister made a good analogy with people standing on chairs... in a good/close relationship, the Christian is on top of the chair, while the non-Christian is on the floor. It's easy for the non-Christian to pull the Christian down and a lot more difficult for the Christian to pull the non-Christian up. I never have plans of converting anyone, anyways. The most I can do is share my faith and allow the Holy Spirit to convict a person. I'm not saying you would pull me down, but I would probably allow myself to be pulled down in some way if I were to get that close to you.
I just honestly praise God that this commotion in my heart has finally gone away and that I am at peace again. Granted, you still consume my thoughts a lot, but all I can do is wait for your answer now. If you agree, praise God. If you don't agree, then praise God also. I will just be one of the weirdest girls you have ever had feelings for.
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