le sept septembre

First I want to start off by saying while getting my Pumpkin Spice Latte, I almost lost my sunglasses.  They fall out of the car as I was heading out of the car - but good thing the parking lot was empty and no one wanted crappy sunglasses so they're safe back in my bag again.

And then I drove around the city for a little bit in my new boots that make me look taller and sipping my latte from time to time while listening to KLOVE.  It was quite nice, so I feel a tad better now.  I know have many things to be happy for, but there's two things at the moment I don't feel so quite content with at the moment:

1.) None of my close friends are in town.

2.) If I ever get my hands on a medium format camera, it'll be quite some time from now.

I know the second one is kind of a stupid reason to be sad, and I'm not entirely that depressed about it but I finally discovered the name of my favourite kind of photography after all these years (and mention in a prior post) - yet I've just been blindly buying camera equipment, not exactly sure of what I wanted to photograph. The good thing is I have a prime lens, and I have photoshop - so I can imitate the effect, but it will never be as crisp and clear and actual medium format cameras.  They say the more you have, the more you want - and this is definitely the case right now.  I already have two pretty good film cameras, a good point-and-shoot, and, a Canon 60D with a prime and zoom lens.  But even with all this, it's not as good as a medium format camera.

I obviously have more to say for the first point.  I'm the kind of person who has only a few friends, but most of them are pretty close, or I can connect with them on deeper subjects.  I definitely have quite a handful of acquaintances, and have only recently tried to contact a few of them again but this only really happens when I feel kind of lonely in times like this.  I'm actually a lot more social and friendly when I'm lonely, haha.. because I have a reason to want to talk to and be around people.  But yeah, it just kind of goes to show of how frequently I don't really want to be around most people.

I know it's always good to network and such, which is basically what some of my acquaintances are for.  Like what if one day what's happen to my mother happens to me?  But it's rather ironic though.  She did have acquaintances and friends care for her for quite some time.  But now?  Only perhaps two or three friends still try to keep up with her, and I'm just obligated to because I'm family.  All this networking and all this "family" that she claims to have had at church has disappeared.  So what do you think I think about keeping in touch with a bunch of people now if it's all futile in the end?

I actually have thought up quite a lot more to write but I have to bring my sister somewhere early in the morning so I should get ready to sleep.