I'm not entirely as girly as some girls I know are. So I begin to think, maybe I should start looking into more girly stuff like shoes and shirts and hair and purses and the like. But I always bring myself back to you know what? screw how society would like me to be and like me to act. I must also add that I'm not that rich and that I don't always look good in everything, either.
I mean, I care about looking decent in a pretty and tolerable way, but not so much about turning heads. I care about nice clothing and wear very minimal make-up and want my hair to look nice - that's probably it. I know girls that are like, alright, I understand the appeal of whatever you're interested in. On the contrary, I also know girls whose lives are constantly submerged into materialistic things like what the hell I don't want to spend ten minutes talking about purses.
Lately I've also been noticing the way I act, and I think part of it has to do with anger or annoyance. All I can think of right now is that for most of my life I give in to people a lot - and I remember the phrase "I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for what I'm not" or something like that. Especially with Christianity - like I can't believe I faked being like a strict Christian. I'm definitely a strong believer - but a very immature one. And I'm tired of faking. I'm tired of people faking. I'm going to start being the true me and if anyone doesn't like it then please there are still basically seven billion people on this Earth don't spend your time despising me because I'm definitely not going to spend my limited time freakin pleasing people all the damn time (tying back to the girly thing...). It's time to get rid of my fear of hatred as well as being susceptible to heartbreak.
I mean, I care about looking decent in a pretty and tolerable way, but not so much about turning heads. I care about nice clothing and wear very minimal make-up and want my hair to look nice - that's probably it. I know girls that are like, alright, I understand the appeal of whatever you're interested in. On the contrary, I also know girls whose lives are constantly submerged into materialistic things like what the hell I don't want to spend ten minutes talking about purses.
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Lately I've also been noticing the way I act, and I think part of it has to do with anger or annoyance. All I can think of right now is that for most of my life I give in to people a lot - and I remember the phrase "I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for what I'm not" or something like that. Especially with Christianity - like I can't believe I faked being like a strict Christian. I'm definitely a strong believer - but a very immature one. And I'm tired of faking. I'm tired of people faking. I'm going to start being the true me and if anyone doesn't like it then please there are still basically seven billion people on this Earth don't spend your time despising me because I'm definitely not going to spend my limited time freakin pleasing people all the damn time (tying back to the girly thing...). It's time to get rid of my fear of hatred as well as being susceptible to heartbreak.
1 comment:
Yes, I have the same name.And I really like your blog,
tres elegante!
I am supposing you speak french, or understand it.
Amen! I am learning just to be me, and not pretending to be some one else.
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