During the first round of this singing competition, I was actually pretty discouraged from what happened - mainly because I got too nervous and it showed horrendously through my singing. However, even though I didn't win the overall competition, today I feel even more encouraged to play music.
I think I discovered the reason, too - people. I was 100% sure friends would be there to support me, and I got to talk to some of the contestants and they're all splendid people. When they gave me an honourable mention, it was pretty much a sign that I wouldn't win the grand prize, which was okay. So then I hoped that maybe these two other people I met today would win it, because they were pretty good. They did get prizes, but only as second and third place. So that kind of confused me. If I were a mere spectator, I would think that at least one of them would get the grand prize. The grand prize was actually someone who I really, really did not want to win - because of his attitude offstage and onstage. That is all I will say about the winner - and no, I'm not jealous. I will admit his voice was very impressive - but performing music has much more to do with than just your voice. Sometimes it's not entirely obvious if a person is singing with or without feeling. Some people obviously sing with all their heart and soul like Ed Sheeran and Chase Zhang. Some empty singers include Jay Chou... and this guy who won today. So that's mostly what made me unhappy. If these judges give the grand prize to such a hollow person, then whatever. They should have known better.
But I'm very thankful that I had my friends William and Megan stay with me today. It would have been a lot more awful if I didn't have company.
Today and tonight is also the first time I'm really looking forward to going to church again, haha. VBS at Valley Church and listening to KLOVE these past few months has helped. I really, really want to try and join Valley Church's worship team though. I really want to play the guitar. But a girl guitarist?
I think I discovered the reason, too - people. I was 100% sure friends would be there to support me, and I got to talk to some of the contestants and they're all splendid people. When they gave me an honourable mention, it was pretty much a sign that I wouldn't win the grand prize, which was okay. So then I hoped that maybe these two other people I met today would win it, because they were pretty good. They did get prizes, but only as second and third place. So that kind of confused me. If I were a mere spectator, I would think that at least one of them would get the grand prize. The grand prize was actually someone who I really, really did not want to win - because of his attitude offstage and onstage. That is all I will say about the winner - and no, I'm not jealous. I will admit his voice was very impressive - but performing music has much more to do with than just your voice. Sometimes it's not entirely obvious if a person is singing with or without feeling. Some people obviously sing with all their heart and soul like Ed Sheeran and Chase Zhang. Some empty singers include Jay Chou... and this guy who won today. So that's mostly what made me unhappy. If these judges give the grand prize to such a hollow person, then whatever. They should have known better.
But I'm very thankful that I had my friends William and Megan stay with me today. It would have been a lot more awful if I didn't have company.
Today and tonight is also the first time I'm really looking forward to going to church again, haha. VBS at Valley Church and listening to KLOVE these past few months has helped. I really, really want to try and join Valley Church's worship team though. I really want to play the guitar. But a girl guitarist?
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