6.27.2012

Aww man.

You are so incredibly charming though!  Thankfully, I didn't let my interest get strong enough - but I will admit I'm tad bit disappointed.  Only because - like my friends think, I'm not exactly into guys, but it kind of takes guys like him to get myself all excited.  But honestly though, the girl that's with him is unbelievably lucky.  The last time I remember I was this charmed was quite some time ago.  I'm interested in guys either because I find them attractive or I find them charming, and probably just twice in my life I have been charmed by some guy (One really, really odd thing you all should know about me is that I may find people attractive, but not be attracted to them.  Or I may find someone charming, but not charmed by them.  So when I talk about 'charm' and 'attraction', I mean by actually attracted to and charmed by... yes, the complicated feelings of this young woman).  And I definitely like this feeling of being charmed more.  Simple attraction definitely doesn't cut it, but sometimes I just can't help myself, haha.  My attractions are definitely extremely short-lived.  Although attractiveness and charm would definitely be a lovely combination.  But ultimately, charm by itself simply surpasses anything, haha.

However, from this little.. "experience", I have decided two things: 

1.) Find someone who CHARMS you! Haha I really liked this feeling even though it was very short-lived.  It's definitely a much better feeling than being attracted to.  And besides, beauty fades away anyways.  Find someone who you click well with. (but still, though, even though I have liked some fugly people none of them were incredibly butt ugly....)

2.) Talk to more people!  Maybe that charm has to be dug out, haha.  It never registered in my mind to ever talk to this guy because I already had plenty of friends in the class we were in.  I actually chose to ignore him when I saw him come into the shop, but he was just friendly enough to say hi.  So it should start being my time to give a quick hello to people and who knows maybe some incredibly charming person will pop up.  Who isn't taken - I have to add, haha.

 I don't even know how to define "charm".  The dictionary says delighted, or admiration.  Definitely those two, but something more?  I mean, I think charm also has some extent of attraction in it but ... I don't know.  The way one acts, the way one presents themselves in front of othwers, the way they talk, etc...

'twas very fun though being this excited in a while
it was enchanting to meet you anyways :)

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