le deux avril

So, my mom has been talking about relationships and marriage again (except every time it gets more and more serious..). As always, she's always telling me to get married in the future - mostly to fit into society and to stay in my (future) social circles. It's not just my mom that's concerned, my dad constantly asks if I've met anyone yet except I don't really understand why he cares in the first place.

But I finally realized the reason why I could care less about being in a relationship or getting married. Growing up, I've seen one parent - my mother - successfully raise my sister and I (um not so sure about my sister haha well there's good and bad parts to both of us). Loneliness is something that pretty much never gets to me- loneliness in terms of physical loneliness and relational loneliness. I guess that's kind of one good thing about being an introvert. I can be alone for like a week and I'll be perfectly fine. I can handle being around people, but I don't mind not being around anyone for long periods of time.

I've seen someone live through a hectic life raising two children, so imagine how much simpler it could be just being able to live your own life and caring only after yourself.

More than one person has also told me that college is a better time to find a significant other, since once people graduate, they're going to be working and it will be more difficult to find someone and have time to date or whatnot. I know these are all sort of "warnings" but right at the moment, I really don't care. At the moment, I see having a boyfriend as someone who will take time away from doing the things I love, which I don't want. I want to find someone whose interests are entirely similar to mine or it's just really difficult to click. I enjoy learning, travelling, and expanding my mind - and my future boyfriend, if I ever get one, has to be someone who will be my go-to best friend in doing all these things - someone whom I don't really bother searching for right now.

Hopefully it will hit me someday, I guess. It's just been eons since I've genuinely taken any interest in any guy.