The dream was stupid though - someone was coming after me (trying to kill me or something) and so I'm like running around this foreign place trying to find someone to help me and I find that old crush of mine and ask if I could hide at his place for a while and he was like sure and then I end up actually going to someone else's place to hide haha.
But anyways, this kind of got me thinking. Through my whole life, I've only had stupid little crushes. There was probably one guy that I genuinely liked a lot more than a crush, but did not fall for. I've never fallen for any guy! And I'm actually pretty content about that, though my parents are getting kind of worried and kind of bug me about it day to day about getting a boyfriend or whatnot.
I personally don't think it's because I'm particularly choosy about guys - I just have not met any guy who I click well with and can feel 100% comfortable around. Also, I'm probably the only girl I know that despises flirting. So I don't do it. I have other ways of expressing interest in guys, but not in ways that will "help them on" or anything so they probably never know anyways.
And I never really did anything about my crushes in high school. I just enjoyed admiring these guys from afar - and I didn't even talk to some of them haha wow I was a weird person... and I still am, but not in that sense though.
I've never really worried about boys, but after having this dream last night, I can sense a little bit of concern for myself now.
Ha. Crap.
And it doesn't really help that I still find a lot of boys stupid and immature.
But I am in no rush - I will just continue doing the things I love, being the person that I am and somewhere, somehow, with the will of God, we shall run into each other (literally or figuratively haha).
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