March 16th, 2011 8:41 pm

It's not that I've become carelss, but that I know what matters more to me in life now. Most of the AP classes I took were a mistake. Not because I'm academically uncapable of handling the workload for those classes or lazy on trying to understand the material, but it's because I have no passion for such things. I wish everyone in this school knew that our young years should have been spent on doing thins that we're passionate about - and not on academic or peer pressure. My mother thinks I'm stooping down to a level where she doesn't want me to be. The truth is, she's becoming less realistic and giving into societal pressures for her children to end up with extremely magnificent lives. Well, for where I'm headed, I'd just like to say that as long as the things I love doing glorify God, that in all my life, my years will be successful in God's eyes, and that's all that matters anyway.

Anyways, today, I also started watching BBC's version of Pride and Prejudice, and I have to say, I like it so far! Though I've only just watched the first episode. I wish they'd choose more "aesthetically pleasing" people though. The only person that looks decent is young Colin Firth (who plays the role of Mr. Darcy). Mr. Darcy is pretty much like the one in the 2005 version, and Elizabeth, Jane, and Lydia are all pretty similar to the 2005 version as well. Mr. Bingley looks more ridiculous in the BBC version, and Mrs. Bennet is far more annoying. And I kept wondering why the actress who plays Miss Bingley looks so familiar... So I did some research just then and discovered that she plays Colin's fiance in "What a Girl Wants"! She has to play such stupid roles! And is rather good at doing so too, I have to admit haha.

And I think the reason I pretend to be ignorant is because I hope to actually turn out that way once again. So many strange things are happening this senior year. And I basically only have three people to talk with. But better three than none at all.

Today I also found out that one of my friends have already been asked to Senior Ball, basically. But first off, she was asked casually in a more friendly manner, not necessarily like official dates or anything. And then she told me that she doesn't really want to go to Senior Ball in the first place. The thing that upsets me is that a lot of my friends won't go without a date. Who says you need a date to have a good time? In fact, I've heard of horrible experiences with dates! I personally don't mind stagging, and I don't really want to go with anyone from this school anyways. So I hope no one asks me!

Also, today in econ, this girl and the teacher were basically debating over the correct nomenclature of certain ruling periods of England. And the girl basically concluded the argument by stating that she's the one from England. So the teacher was like ... okay ... "Where's your accent, Miss England?" And she basically showed to the class what her way of speaking used to be, and admitted that it sounded horrible (which it kind of did...). But I noticed that when she talked like this, her voice became significantly lower. And then I remember my friend Melanie telling me that when she and Sarah talk in an English accent, their voices also become lower. Mine doesn't really - it just becomes kind of soft and muffled... but I guess because of that it might sound lower.

Gosh and I don't understand how people had the patience to write when it was just bird feathers and octopus ink or whatever. Writing in cursive takes up so much ink! People back then must have had to dip the feathers like fifty times per sentence!

I want to go to England. Everything seems so much better there.