I'm going to write a quick entry because tomorrow I have to wake up an hour earlier than I usually do. There's just some things that I'd like to get off my chest.
Jealousy. Sometimes I think this is a dangerous kind of jealousy. I know I don't have any right to be, but I do wish at times I were better at piano. One of my fellow pianisit classmates in Orchestra was playing his own music in the piano room, which isn't exactly soundproof, so everyone heard what he was playing and was very impressed by it. He's also in an actual outside-of-school string orchestra, so he also has more experience in these kinds of groups. And I am extremely jealous of him, but it's not even anything I can "steal", you know? I haven't even been playing piano seriously anymore - just for leisure, and a way to deal with emotions. Today I also finally ordered the correct Pride and Prejudice songbook for piano solo, which I look foward to very much, even though the music isn't exactly considered very advanced. As long as the music I play soothes me, then who cares for the desire of praise?
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