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囧 .............. This is probably one of the most emotional things of my whole life.... which is really dumb... because it's just high school.

No, it doesn't have to do with any kind of relationship (that counts religion too... kind of).
No, it doesn't have to do with any academic core subjects.

but - AGH.
MUSIC!!!!!!!!! 我不懂為什麼我這麼老的時候才發現我非常愛音樂

Should I play with my eyes closed? .___. No it's not because I don't feel like seeing Mr. Galli (well, partly because I have stage fright - -), and it's DEFINITELY not trying to show off or anything. But I actually do play better with my eyes closed, for some really strange reason. I thought that maybe I should just look elsewhere when I'm playing, but that doesn't really work too. @___@ Maybe Mr. Galli will let me put a blindfold on myself.

And I finally heard myself play for the first time.. that doesn't really make sense, but I recorded a video of myelf playing but omygoodnes... I'm horrible - -"....... I kept fretting on the wrong notes and my pace was all over the place.

Everyone's going like just do it or else you'll regret it and just risk it you never know what will happen God works in mysterious ways. I definitely agree with all of that. But really? Heartache before finals and AP testing?

I could be freaking out too much - but I need to because this year isn't like any of the other years - SO many people are keeping their spots in Chamber this year, and only a handful of violinists will get in but there are soooo many people trying out. AND the people that are trying out are REALLY good.

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If a teacher gives me homework the night of Wednesday or gives any assessment on Thursday I'm going to hate them forever.

- -" Well I can't say that... :[ because then it'll be like this whole time God didn't mean for me to enter in the first place.

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