Technically, "today" I'm supposed to be doing 39 but x___x.. I WILL read it later today - I promise.
And to make up for the many days I did not respond on the computer, this will be a super long entry x]
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DAY 37
"You may feel like you don't have anything to share, but that's the Devil trying to keep you silent. You have a storehouse of experiences that God wants us to use to bring others into his family".... ORLY?!! Well, let's see what Warren (technically, God) has to say..
LOL "Jesus said, 'You will be my witnesses,' not 'You will be my attorney'."
So hm... my testimony? Haha... that's in my December 20th 2009 entry - the day of my Baptism x]... but I should sum it up here just for the heck of it
1. What my life was like before I met Jesus - very impatient, filled much with anger and childishness and selfishness and pride
2. How I realized I need Jesus - I needed a way to calm down and find a way to and find love in order to have more meaning to life.
3. How I committed my life to Jesus - haha.. kind of thru appreciation of music and nature... but it leads off from there and grows :]
4. The difference Jesus has made in my life - My temptations are much much easier to control, I'm not as racist anymore [I'm still working on this D: ], I'm still quick to get angry but I'm working on slowing it down - however I'm even quicker to calm myself down, I'm much less selfish and don't think so highly of myself anymore.
"A warning given by an experienced person to someone willing to listen is more valuable than ... jewelry made of the finest gold."
SO.
- What has God taught me from failure? Well, personally from junior year, DON'T PROCRASTINATE - -"... haha I don't think that really counts, though D: But the first thing that really pops up in my mind is that you should aim for your passions and dreams (that are possible to be contributed to the Christian community) no matter what the obstacles or temptations to stay behind.
- What has God taught me from lack of money? Um.. save money? ><... I don't know.. I guess like now - I really want to take up violin lessons again, whether I make Chamber Orchestra or not. But since we don't have the money for classes, I just have to try, try harder. But because I grew up in a not-so-rich family, I'm actually kind of thankful - because lots of people want go grow up with a full sized house and a nice car and whatever. Personally, I don't want any of that. Time goes by REALLY fast - soon you'll be dead and I don't want the last thought in my mind being ohh noo all that work I did and money I spent who will have it now? Haha the goverment will take it away so what's the point of having so many worldly belongings D: . I'd like a small house, I don't really want a car because hybrid or not they all pollute anyway. Even if I do get a lot of money in the future (which I probably won't looking at my SAT score things .___.), I don't want most of it - I want to give it to more useful things like to people that don't have what we in Cupertino have and such.
- What has God taught me from pain or sorrow or depression? That you can't solve things by yourself, or by hiding all of these emotions. You must let it out somehow - but some people let it out in the most inhumane ways. To let it out as humanely has possible - write it all down, tell it to someone, or even better - tell God himself. Any kind of pain, sorrow, depression that you may have, God has a reason for it. And besides, do you know there's more things to happy about than sad about? This sounds very cliche, but it does work when you come to think about it - that you should think about happy things when you're not feeling so well.
- What has God taught me through waiting? Uhh....... D: I don't know haha because I'm in the process of waiting for something, haha. I guess, be patient. And accept whatever the outcome - because God always knows what's best for you.
- What has God taught me through my illness? Ummm... Well, I have quite a few 'illnesses' - I'm lactose intolerant, I can't eat citric-y stuff, ... I can't eat cooked tomatoes? - -", I can't eat super oily stuff like pizza (but I do anyways - -"), I have this strange jaw syndrome, and my nervous system is so strangely wired - -". But I guess through all of this ... I just think that I'm not going to be in this body for long anyways... that I need to 堅持 and if I can find cures, then great! If I can't - they're not such a big deal - because there's better things to be focusing on.
- What has God taught me through my disappointment? That certain things weren't intended for me to do. My disappointment doesn't matter - it's His greater plans for me that do.
- What have I learned from my family, my church, my relationships, my small group, and my critics? Okayyy this is long. Um.. from my family, ... I guess to be more patient because I'm always stuck with these people? haha... I've become more patient compared to before.. For church - that mainting a proper church structure is very necessary? And everyone needs to cooperate in everything that happens in the church to keep it up and running. [I don't have a small group *O*...] Critics? Like... people who trash talk about me? I don't know.. I don't really care about those people haha... I guess the thing I've 'learned' from them is that everyone is flawed - no one is perfect..
Now it's just a matter of sharing this all to the world - by blogging? haha no one knows my blog though how do I broadcast it @囗@... but then I don't really want people to know either because it's rather personal sometimes... But they're recognition of God is more important than my stupid blabbering of my own events I guess ~
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Day 38
HISTORY IS HIS STORY ;]
hahahahaha.... "e-vangelistic" = web talk of His word ;]
courage to speak up, opportunity to witness, those who will believe, the praid spread of the message, more workers
community, country, culture, nations
[heh sorry those were random but if you think about it you'll know why I posted it xP]
Regarding missions...
I do want to go on missions. Not because they're fun or anything (though I know they are), but because I really want other people to know that this life isn't all there is - there is more than this! My 'excuses'? Well, I'm setting aside my personal excuses now, because what is right is more important than what I fear. A big 'excuse' are my parents, ha D: ...
*O* This book has really convinced me to go to youth group or something. But then again, does my small group have to be at the church I am a member of? = ="...
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k goodnight/morning ><
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