So here are my specific prayer requests I've been having & answers I feel I have received

1. What should I do and pray for when I know I'm doing something I shouldn't?  ---
2. Should I ever bring up the topic?  Definitely not.
3. Should I even be fretting over him?  No.  There are more important things to worry about at this point in my life.
4. Can it be known to him that he is loved?  Yes.
5. How? ---

If I could be honest here, I was actually planning on giving him this letter I had already written once I was sure I was thinking out of sense and discernment and not out of worldly feelings.  However, I know for a fact that I am not completely not letting my feelings take part in my decisions, so it's best that I wait things out for now.

Yet while I know what's best and while I know what's righteous, actually doing those things is a lot harder said than done.  I will try my best, I will be in prayer, I will try my best to talk to other people and try to think of other things to do.  However, I can't promise I won't fail in my intentions.  I'm just always trying to remind myself that I'm still partially deciding on faded feelings and that doing so is not a good idea.

I'm just really trying to examine my intentions here - and while I know I would never dare be with him again after seeing his true character and seeing how unsure he is of himself - I still can't help but care. 

I know ithat n the end of it all, the answer to all my questions will be time - specifically, God's timing.  Time, time, time....

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But can't I just let him know that he is so dearly beloved and that he doesn't have to do this?