I have to write this down before I forget

I was praying tonight, and finally realized that though my feelings have faded, yet are still lingering, my greatest intention in wanting to say what I want to say to you is that I don't want you to have a bad impression of someone who is strong in their Christian faith.  Christianity is all about love, compassion, grace, and forgiveness - and I genuinely want you to realize this and that I apologize for expressing otherwise.   That is my main intention.  That's it, nothing else.