Humbling myself at work

I'm thankful for the place I work at - partly because of the sort-of gentle reminders about how to improve myself.

Yesterday at work, I could feel my boss being pretty accusatory towards me.  I don't want to say he was being disrespectful, because I know how he is, but behind his words of sarcasm and teasing, I could definitely sense of an implication of frustration and 'why are you so dumb?'.

However, though there was still some tension today, it was a lot better.  My boss had been pointing out that it's good to be organized, and I have been feeling bad that I continuously kept asking him questions.  But he so wholeheartedly welcomes these questions, so I feel like I've become used to it and am not letting myself think for myself.  Granted, he's not 100% humble and organized, but neither am I.  He mentioned that he was not upset, but just wanted to give me some pointers about working in a professional environment.  And it's okay to be upset, though... I even wanted to bring up the question, "Are you upset?"  But the fact that he went on this whole spiel about organization and planning and my future in the professional world basically showed that we was upset, even slightly upset.

And if I could be honest, work has started to become a chore for me and I've just been getting really fidgety and distracted lately.  I do like what I do most of the time, but some of the time it really does get tedious and frustrating.

I do really want to be more on top of things, though - who doesn't?  Next week when I go in, I'm going to make sure that whenever projects come up, I'll analyze the problems and remind myself to focus on what the end goal is supposed to be and take some time to efficiently think of a process to reach that end goal or solution.

I've also been feeling like because I've just been standing up for myself lately, some pride has come along with it, too.  I will mention that I still remain respectful toward everyone, though.  It's just that the pride makes me feel frustrated on the inside and in the moment, makes me unwilling to change my ways.  However, I've ultimately learned that it's good to be open towards everyone, because I may learn or discover more about myself that help me become a more godly person.