but twitter doesn't give enough space, and I can't use tumblr. And I need somewhere to ramble.
However, I am seriously in shock of how my own feelings can alter so much within a matter of two weeks! I watched that video of Alyssa and Jeff regarding dating just three weeks ago, never thinking I'd ever think of wanting to date anyone that wasn't Christian, especially in the near future and then..
BAM this wonderful, gorgeous guy decides to talk to me in class and we become completely open and comfortable with each other in such a short amount of time. I start to become iffy with regards to only dating Christian guys, but the Holy Spirit as well as a number of sisters in Christ are helping me stay in place.
I guess through this short experience of mine, I've begun to understand the meaning behind 'opposites attract' because I am actually very, very opposite from this guy in terms of... the way we act, our outlooks on life and parts of our personality yet for some reason there is still a very strong attraction and connection, haha. Yeah I don't understand my own feelings either.
The last time I remember having such strong feelings in such a short amount of time was during the Mission Trip in Taiwan. That was an interesting period of life, too. It was hard to let go of all the girls we had met and got close with in just one week, but now we can all smile back on the memories and aren't obligated to keep up with each other.
But honestly, I just hope to maintain a nice friendship with this guy, though. If he'd be willing to. I get where he's coming from, though, it's difficult to be just friends when we both know we like each other. I'm very worried about getting jealous, even though he doesn't even belong to me in any way.
I rummaged through my bag and wallet and phone trying to contact an older lady at church. The action of doing that was almost comparable to finding an inhaler for someone who has asthma, it was just that kind of desperation to talk and get some answers. But I'm glad I was able to talk to her for about 15 minutes. She actually went through with dating a non-believer, and her story just sounded absolutely terrible. Thankfully, she's married to a believer now (another guy) and they have a lovely family. However, because of the relationship decisions she decided to make in college, she feels like she wasted a lot of time of her life when she could have been growing more in Christ. She also had an excessive amount of heartbreak. Heartbreak doesn't sound very fun.
And it's almost impossible to grow in Christ if the person you're closest with on this Earth isn't also trying to pursue Christ. It's not their fault or your fault, it's just human nature. When we get so close to someone, we want to be like them and be with them and please them. If two people are pursuing Christ, then they can both strive to be like Christ and please Christ - a beautiful and strong relationship will follow.
However, I am seriously in shock of how my own feelings can alter so much within a matter of two weeks! I watched that video of Alyssa and Jeff regarding dating just three weeks ago, never thinking I'd ever think of wanting to date anyone that wasn't Christian, especially in the near future and then..
BAM this wonderful, gorgeous guy decides to talk to me in class and we become completely open and comfortable with each other in such a short amount of time. I start to become iffy with regards to only dating Christian guys, but the Holy Spirit as well as a number of sisters in Christ are helping me stay in place.
I guess through this short experience of mine, I've begun to understand the meaning behind 'opposites attract' because I am actually very, very opposite from this guy in terms of... the way we act, our outlooks on life and parts of our personality yet for some reason there is still a very strong attraction and connection, haha. Yeah I don't understand my own feelings either.
The last time I remember having such strong feelings in such a short amount of time was during the Mission Trip in Taiwan. That was an interesting period of life, too. It was hard to let go of all the girls we had met and got close with in just one week, but now we can all smile back on the memories and aren't obligated to keep up with each other.
But honestly, I just hope to maintain a nice friendship with this guy, though. If he'd be willing to. I get where he's coming from, though, it's difficult to be just friends when we both know we like each other. I'm very worried about getting jealous, even though he doesn't even belong to me in any way.
I rummaged through my bag and wallet and phone trying to contact an older lady at church. The action of doing that was almost comparable to finding an inhaler for someone who has asthma, it was just that kind of desperation to talk and get some answers. But I'm glad I was able to talk to her for about 15 minutes. She actually went through with dating a non-believer, and her story just sounded absolutely terrible. Thankfully, she's married to a believer now (another guy) and they have a lovely family. However, because of the relationship decisions she decided to make in college, she feels like she wasted a lot of time of her life when she could have been growing more in Christ. She also had an excessive amount of heartbreak. Heartbreak doesn't sound very fun.
And it's almost impossible to grow in Christ if the person you're closest with on this Earth isn't also trying to pursue Christ. It's not their fault or your fault, it's just human nature. When we get so close to someone, we want to be like them and be with them and please them. If two people are pursuing Christ, then they can both strive to be like Christ and please Christ - a beautiful and strong relationship will follow.
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