I apologize

I am very, very sorry.  You have no idea how apologetic I feel.  I did not mean to confuse you, twice even.  I was very conflicted and confused myself.  It was either I go through with this and remain conflicted for a long period of time, or refuse to go through with this and finally be relieved of the burden of uncertainty.

I have the feeling that a large reason why I like you is that you are genuinely fascinated with me, and I don't come across people like that often (but I don't exactly have explicit, concrete reasons for liking people).  I found you physically attractive, too.  I don't know why I didn't feel a click yesterday like I used to but the fact that I didn't and the fact that I am conflicted is really the big sign why I chose not to go through with this.  Plus, I feel if we did go any further, there would eventually be a deadlock since without the understanding of the topic of my faith, there's only so much I can talk to you about.

You are extremely likable, charming, open-minded, sweet, very comfortable to be around, a pleasure to talk to, and I absolutely admire the way carry yourself - but almost in the most friendliest manner as possible.

I begin to think it's not so much that you're not Christian - but because you aren't, naturally there are some important beliefs that we disagree on and find difficult to understand.

I hope you don't stay confused for too long.  I mean, we both know you'll be fine.  You honestly do make a good friend, though, and I do very much envy the lucky lady who you'll end up with.  I hope our class together for the rest of the quarter won't be too awkward, and the most I can do is simply pray for you.

I'm
so
sorry.  You have no idea.

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