The Passion of the Christ.

Great movie, very graphic, very visual, and emotional.

However, I honestly thought that I might have some new understanding from finally getting to watch this film - but I didn't.  I can't stand people being tortured or killed, so for most of the time, my head was under a blanket.  And when the torturing was done and all I saw was blood and flesh openings - I was actually not that grossed out by it probably because I've watched too much Bones and have even become accustomed to watching people pry away the bloody tissue from a bone while eating my dinner.

I cried on few parts - first was the one where Mary reached out to her son and tried to pick him up when he fell from carrying the cross and there was that flashback of Jesus as a child falling and Mary rushing to pick him up.  Another time was when I would see Jesus struggling to carry the cross, with as much pain he was in (he's basically already dying...) but he knew what had to be accomplished, and dealt with the physical pain.  The other time was seeing Mary trying her best to look after the needs of her son as much as she could - from the moment of his crucifixion to the taking down of the body.  Just thinking about what must have been going through her head was heartbreaking - she knew her son had to suffer and stayed to watch him in helplessness.  Yet she thought of the greater plan of God's will, and knew that her biological son would be her soul savior and the rest of the world's - so all she could do was wait for his resurrection.  The Romans could definitely see this motherly love - and their change in attitude towards Jesus as he was dying sort of made me cry too.  So I cried mostly because of the portrayal of motherly love... not sure if that necessarily means anything.

Even thought this film isn't an 100% accurate description of what happened in the Bible, I think it portrayed how insane and by man's standards, ridiculous Jesus was (and is) to love a people like us.  It's crazy, and it's an insane love - and I honestly don't believe I'll ever understand it even if I get into Heaven.