I won't go too much in detail about this stuff because I know there are some non-Christians reading this blog and if I tell you guys everything it can honestly be scary as hell for you all.
Today was another good night of Bible study with the worship team and others, and one thing that's sort of close to my heart (or soul, rather) is regarding spiritual warfare. I posted an entry earlier, about how one reason of why I'm afraid to materialize God is because once I materialize the holy, I will also begin to materialize the sinful.
Which should happen - one can't exist without the other. The solution is how to stand strong against the devil and his works. However, with the Silicon Valley being the Silicon Valley, the devil's works are a lot more subtle because we're all so pre-occupied with education, business, and technology. Some of the evil things we see in this area, we think are in our heads. But the more I personally am able to materialize the spiritual world - the easier and easier it is becoming to distinguish whether it's ourselves or the devil. I have physically experienced evil spiritual works - but I have also physically felt Christ's holy presence. Obviously in this world, you'll have to see/experience it to believe it - so most of you guys probably don't believe me. Whether you take my word for it honestly is entirely up to you - but I know I have experienced God's presence. Like today - I haven't had the conviction to pray for people in front of people for the longest time, but something was urging me on to speak to God for our group as a whole.
I don't exactly know how to stand my ground in any other way than memorizing Bible verses by heart and praying - and it's all I can do as a student in the Silicon Valley anyways, so I will continue to do so.
I'd like to discuss more deeply about what we discussed today in Bible study, but I honestly think I'll save that for talking to my Christian peers. If you really do want to know, don't ask me because I will not tell you. Any other genuine follower of Christ probably would not tell any agnostic or non-believer because scaring someone into our beliefs is a wrong way of telling them about Christ. But let me say this - the kind of Christianity I follow is not a 'boring one'. It's very dangerous, unpredictable, emotional, personal, and even adventurous at times. It can bring about peace, as some people search for in 'religions' - but it depends under what context for the beliefs I follow. I am at peace mentally and emotionally with the circumstances I have to go through because I am able to put God's will above mine. The disturbing part for me is this spiritual warfare - which if I continue to follow God and will continue to follow - and the awareness of this warfare will continue for as long as I live. Anyone like me knows it is a winning battle - by The Word it is written that God and Heaven will prevail, but right now we are all still in combat and spiritual armor is very necessary.
I guess the more fear I harbor, the stronger my faith becomes because the mere fact that this fear is in place shows that God is also here with me. It's kind of an unfortunately vicious cycle for the devil. Also, the fact that the work that I do for God is relatively minimal and the devil is still attacking me at the moment even though I'm almost essentially idle in my works, shows that the devil is afraid of what I am going to do.
And I believe that I am going to take part in something great for the advancement of God's kingdom.
Today was another good night of Bible study with the worship team and others, and one thing that's sort of close to my heart (or soul, rather) is regarding spiritual warfare. I posted an entry earlier, about how one reason of why I'm afraid to materialize God is because once I materialize the holy, I will also begin to materialize the sinful.
Which should happen - one can't exist without the other. The solution is how to stand strong against the devil and his works. However, with the Silicon Valley being the Silicon Valley, the devil's works are a lot more subtle because we're all so pre-occupied with education, business, and technology. Some of the evil things we see in this area, we think are in our heads. But the more I personally am able to materialize the spiritual world - the easier and easier it is becoming to distinguish whether it's ourselves or the devil. I have physically experienced evil spiritual works - but I have also physically felt Christ's holy presence. Obviously in this world, you'll have to see/experience it to believe it - so most of you guys probably don't believe me. Whether you take my word for it honestly is entirely up to you - but I know I have experienced God's presence. Like today - I haven't had the conviction to pray for people in front of people for the longest time, but something was urging me on to speak to God for our group as a whole.
I don't exactly know how to stand my ground in any other way than memorizing Bible verses by heart and praying - and it's all I can do as a student in the Silicon Valley anyways, so I will continue to do so.
I'd like to discuss more deeply about what we discussed today in Bible study, but I honestly think I'll save that for talking to my Christian peers. If you really do want to know, don't ask me because I will not tell you. Any other genuine follower of Christ probably would not tell any agnostic or non-believer because scaring someone into our beliefs is a wrong way of telling them about Christ. But let me say this - the kind of Christianity I follow is not a 'boring one'. It's very dangerous, unpredictable, emotional, personal, and even adventurous at times. It can bring about peace, as some people search for in 'religions' - but it depends under what context for the beliefs I follow. I am at peace mentally and emotionally with the circumstances I have to go through because I am able to put God's will above mine. The disturbing part for me is this spiritual warfare - which if I continue to follow God and will continue to follow - and the awareness of this warfare will continue for as long as I live. Anyone like me knows it is a winning battle - by The Word it is written that God and Heaven will prevail, but right now we are all still in combat and spiritual armor is very necessary.
I guess the more fear I harbor, the stronger my faith becomes because the mere fact that this fear is in place shows that God is also here with me. It's kind of an unfortunately vicious cycle for the devil. Also, the fact that the work that I do for God is relatively minimal and the devil is still attacking me at the moment even though I'm almost essentially idle in my works, shows that the devil is afraid of what I am going to do.
And I believe that I am going to take part in something great for the advancement of God's kingdom.
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