Too many things running through my head today

so many questions and thoughts I wanted to discuss on here.  But here's a short way to sum everything up:

Whenever I feel like this, I really should not be driving.  Because when I do, I keep having these thoughts where they're basically "Just one turn - just one slight of the hand and you won't have to deal with the problems of this world anymore".  I don't think that's coming from my own conscious, and I will say I'm tempted, but I'm stronger than that.  However, I'm also vulnerable in ways many people don't notice.  So I think I'll try to stay away from the car when I'm feeling melancholic.