A bigger purpose

of your own path of life definitely makes you see things from a bigger picture.  Fulfillment will be achieved, but hurt and conflict will be inevitable.

I think my first 'initiation' of recognizing this bigger purpose is finally deciding to seriously major in Linguistics.  Granted, I have heard of linguist majors who have failed to do anything with their degrees and have turned back to the business world - so I also plan to test for a CPA as back-up.  I talked with someone from my church the other day - and the fact that someone like me, with so many talents and apparently a "sweet spirit" is also preparing to study something like Linguistics, she says that God is beginning to show me the pieces of what He has planned for me.  And I honestly think so, too.  From time to time, I get this feeling that I will participate in something great on a global scale, I just don't know what yet.  Along with this feeling of a greater assignment, I also get similar feelings with people I meet - and I think that might be where this 'click' feeling comes from some of the time.  Just within probably a week of talking to people, I immediately make a decision if we'd make good friends or not.  Among my friends, it's pretty obvious who will be transitory ones and who will be valuable ones for longer periods of time in my life.

I just need to remember to continuously pray for preparation and the spiritual and emotional strength for whatever's to come.  And physical strength as well - since my body is so in tune with my emotions - which is why I decide to feel indifferent and neutral most of the time because a toll on my emotions means a harsher toll - physical pain.  Why God has decided to place this soul in such a fragile human body I will never understand, but I know that He knows he definitely knows what He's doing.  However, recognizing a greater purpose means making myself more vulnerable and which also means exhausting my physical being.