Blogger seems too formal, and tumblr seems too casual. So whatever, I'll just leave it here. I'm not usually like this, so this post is going to sound really weird.
I'm not usually "helplessly attracted" a guy. In fact, I can count on my fingers the number of times I couldn't help but be attracted to someone (seven, actually, throughout my life so far). Usually, I'll somehow have the luxury of getting to talk to a guy I'm attracted to, otherwise I have this odd, fiery feeling inside of me that I need to ... extinguish... And actually, every single time I have finally gotten to know these guys more, the fiery feeling goes away pretty quickly - but only because I'd finally have a definite idea of how they are. This time, however, I have no way of knowing anything about this guy unless I spot him at school or purposely go back to that restaurant. Technically I could add him on facebook but then he's going to be like "What the hell..." and we don't have any mutual friends anyways... Also, all I do know of him is that he's.. a.. druggie... yet, this attraction still isn't going away. And no, I know it's not just a physical attraction because when I'm attracted to someone, looks aren't entirely the reason because I have been attracted to some pretty fugly guys whom I've never told many people about. There's just something different and intriguing about them that draws me to them... if that makes sense. Or it probably doesn't. So yeah the problem right now is, I'm just like blank all day thinking of this guy, not about him. And I don't like this feeling mostly because he's a druggieeeeeee. I've also decided to post this somewhere because these thoughts have been going around in my head for a week now and it usually doesn't last this long.
So hopefully this phase will be over sooon.
I'm not usually "helplessly attracted" a guy. In fact, I can count on my fingers the number of times I couldn't help but be attracted to someone (seven, actually, throughout my life so far). Usually, I'll somehow have the luxury of getting to talk to a guy I'm attracted to, otherwise I have this odd, fiery feeling inside of me that I need to ... extinguish... And actually, every single time I have finally gotten to know these guys more, the fiery feeling goes away pretty quickly - but only because I'd finally have a definite idea of how they are. This time, however, I have no way of knowing anything about this guy unless I spot him at school or purposely go back to that restaurant. Technically I could add him on facebook but then he's going to be like "What the hell..." and we don't have any mutual friends anyways... Also, all I do know of him is that he's.. a.. druggie... yet, this attraction still isn't going away. And no, I know it's not just a physical attraction because when I'm attracted to someone, looks aren't entirely the reason because I have been attracted to some pretty fugly guys whom I've never told many people about. There's just something different and intriguing about them that draws me to them... if that makes sense. Or it probably doesn't. So yeah the problem right now is, I'm just like blank all day thinking of this guy, not about him. And I don't like this feeling mostly because he's a druggieeeeeee. I've also decided to post this somewhere because these thoughts have been going around in my head for a week now and it usually doesn't last this long.
So hopefully this phase will be over sooon.
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