le dix-huit janvier

Hi blogger. So ever since... well, last year, I've been pretty close-minded about writing (ironically.. during a time when I began to become extremely more open-minded than I used to be). I only was willing to post things on my blogger from actual writings I had actually hand-written, so I basically seldom had the time to do so - especially now since I've started college. The reason I thought this way is because I believe that I write the best from my heart, through my own bare hands. I still think this way, but.. actually... not to be shallow or anything, I've only decided to pick up writing on my blogger again for purely academic purposes since my writing skills have greatly diminished... hehe. So the way I am going to distinguish between blogging-writing and hand-written-writing on here is by having my blogging-writing titles be in French! And hopefully soon I can be able to blog in French too or something - who knows?

There are actually tons of things that run through my head everyday where I begin to think "Oh, maybe I should blog about this later! I'm definitely going to go home and write this down" and then I completely forget about what I was thinking about earlier in the day.

Fortunately, there is one thing I remember from school today. My accounting teacher is always trying to get his students to mingle with one another, especially with people they don't know. So, today I got to meet this extremely smart classmate of mine. We had to partner up for the regular quiz-group-consultations (basically, our teacher allows us to "confirm answers" with each other before we turn our quizzes again). I had read the required material a few days beforehand, so I actually had forgotten quite a lot of details, whereas this classmate remembered so many things and helped our group get a pretty good score. So one lesson from this - keep reviewing!!

After we turned in our quizzes, we got to talk to one another. This girl really wants to be an artist, go into some art major at an art school in San Francisco. She seems like she would be really artistic, too. And then I realize her situation is just like mine - we both want to improve in our respective fields of art, yet reality hits so strongly on us and we have to actually acquire a "real-world" skill before doing anything else. Which I find, is a very strange thing since none of our souls are of this "real-world" in the first place.

Tired as I was today, I came home for my 50 minute lunch break, and tried to push in at least 20 minutes of playing guitar. When I was finally done for the day at 3:45, all I did was deal with my photography hobby. I went out for a walk (in this extremely undesirable freezing weather) and managed to get one or two nice photographs to start out my 52-week project. Immediately following that, my dad took me to Target, Staples, and Aaron Brother's to deal with my showcasing of my photography for tomorrow at the Sunnyvale Art Gallery. It was actually extremely frustrating, decided where and how to print my photographs, and how I was going to frame them. Since I had already had my files ready and ended up buying really nice (and pricey) frames, I decided to continue struggling to find a way to print my photographs even though I really felt like giving up because I felt like it was such a hassle! But I hate, absolutely hate leaving things undone (which is probably why I absolutely despise it when people break promises and why I am so insistent carrying out any promises I make and am so ashamed when I can't carry them out - even if they're ridiculous ... but that's a topic for another day), so I eventually got some (crappy) photography paper from Staples and had my dad print them out... they didn't look so good at first but when I finally came home and showed my sister, she thought I bought those photographs. So I must say, today's hard work payed off.

Even when I'm tired, even when I have schoolwork to do - music and photography are the first things I run to, even subconsciously at times. Because, I believe these are things that keep me feeling alive and content with life. I actually still have reading to finish and a thesis to write up for this paper but I really feel like writing because I haven't written in so long and I feel like my mind is just going to like have some bad diarrhea or something if I don't let it out at a steady pace (haha sorry that was a disgusting metaphor).

I'd also like to point out that a friend of mine and myself have been ... noticed(?) by our favourite celebrities! Or at least one of our favourite musicians. Chase saw a video of a cover I did of a song of his, and my friend did a cover of one of The Wanted's songs - and a member of The Wanted saw it! I actually remember before I started recording my video, I was thinking "if being a simple fan doing things like only supporting a musician verbally and financially doesn't show how much I actually appreciate this musician's (Chase's, for me haha) works, what will?" and of course, musicians being musical - music is a great way to show appreciation! So yes. Everyone has got to love music! But most people seem to forget who the gift and sound of music come from...

Okay I really have to finish up my English reading.

Goodnight