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MMmmmm I don't know how to describe this.

Basically, I grew up getting things over quickly, usually things that make me angry or sad. Not to flaunt anything, but I've grown up emotionally strong. I guess I give props to God for making me this way, which is a good thing at times. But sometimes there's always a downside. I'm not a very sentimental person, and I'm only understanding towards people unless I've experienced the same things myself.

I grew up in a broken family, so tears and anger came often. As the years passed, I finally got used to letting it go. If I begin to feel angry, I just remind myself that I'm not the stupid one here. If I begin to feel sad.... I begin to feel angry >____> and then yeah. And I don't cry a lot .___. which is.. good.. I guess? I only cry when I'm like physically hurt(duh) or when I'm angry. I guess yeah, I'll cry when I watch certain movies and stuff but that's not real. But tears are how I deal with anger now... and I'll admit, it works.

But then at a lot of times, I'm angry towards myself. So I don't know what kind of 'feeling' that's called.

Okay I'm not depressed right now or anything but I just had this sudden urge to share this ._. I guess I'm proud that I'm emotionally strong and know how to control my emotions, but then sometimes I feel like it makes me seem heartless.