And then I ate but I wasn't in the mood for eating so I guess I kind of just wasted food. And then I was online for like three hours when I should have been doing homework - but I did work on my college essays a bit. And then I got ready to go to Sarah's house 8D
We planned on watching Furious Love but I'm not gonna explain why we didn't because it's kind of embarassing in on my part. So we played wii.. like wii dance or something haha I don't know the name. But it got our hearts pumpin and and it was good cardio workout? XD Wii is pretty impressive D: Technology is getting pretty advanced.
And then Sarah's dad made us all a super super super super good dinner!!!
Melanie didn't finish her bowl .__. but then again, she never finishes anything XD
And the four of us talked. Yee.
And then Sarah's dad gave me lots of good advice on my essays ^___^ So I'm really thankful for that haha.
But now I'm confused about college again. I'm still going to apply to the top five UCs - but I'm still real reluctant because of financial reasons. If I'm guaranteed to SD, Irvine, and Davis through community college, what's the point of applying when I can save money? But what my mom said was right to - I also have to look out for chances for scholarships. Maybe I'll get an all-out four year scholarship from one of the top UCs... maybe -_________-"... It's kind of an all or nothing deal - Berkeley or LA, or nothing at all and straight to community college, which isn't a bad idea... It saves money, but I'm just scared - what if I start to get lazy? I already have... and getting into a UC will allow me to stay at the current level I am, but for some reason I feel like if I go to community college, I'll get dragged down.
God, what do you have in store for me? If I'm accepted into Berkeley and LA, then I absolutely understand what you want me to do. Otherwise, I'm kind of clueless.
I guess I'll keep praying.
And lately I've still been real pressured about looks and materialistic stuff... so I need to step out of that. I've already stopped using tumblr, so hopefully that will help.
And I need to start setting my priorities straight and stop being depressed over stupid things.
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