Well, first off I'm going to say the usual stuff. Happy Easter, and please, don't forget the real reason why we're celebrating easter. I really don't have any idea of where the bunny came from, but Easter was the day hundreds of years ago when Jesus rose back up into Heaven - proof that He really does exist because there ARE witnesses! Heck, I guess you can count us all as witnesses, too ;]
Um I missed my sister's baptism? I wasn't really sure if I was going to go in the first place or not, it was kind of like ehh I'll go if I feel like it - -" And in the end, I didn't - -"... I really don't know if this was wrong or not. Yes, I missed a big event of a family member, and people just wanted me to be there, even if I was sleeping through testimonies. But then later, I began to realize that the the only reason my sister and my mother wanted me to go was just to take pictures - -". I don't want to just attend for the sake of taking pictures or just for the sake that it's a big even for my sister - I want to because I can recognize that it's a big milestone in her journey of faith. So I really don't know what to think about this yet. And gosh I don't know what's wrong with me now, I keep sleeping late. Music is great, but I'm kind of.. starting to idolize it, and that is definitely not pleasing to God. It's taking over my life, sleeping schedule, my homework, 'important events'.
I kind of noticed something was strange. Everything was pretty typical, pretty great. But when things begin to seem too normal, I suggest you stop life down and think to yourself of - what am I REALLY supposed to be doing? I keep telling myself to read the Bible, read devotions, remember Him 24-7, but for some reason it hasn't been working lately. Lately I've been kind of cold hearted and just dazing out to whatever is placed before. I'm not going to blame education, but my lifestyle has become rather... "robotic"? I mean, that's how worldy my life is starting to become. Something suddenly struck me during church - should I stick with this 1980 and do things that I love to glorify God, or should I stray away from church again and study for something that only might be able to give me a better economically stable future? Hard.
Yesterday was the first time in quite a while that I've seen someone pray for before they ate. I felt guilty, that I didn't pray. I don't know the reason why that person prays before they ate - but now I will have my own reason. I rarely pray before I eat any meal - so now I'm going to start praying before food goes into my mouth, not only that I'm lucky enough to have food, but to constantly remind myself of my Father that I had begun to slowly forget.
Today's message was pretty strong - Pastor Yuji is pretty cool. All I knew was that Matthew was a taxcollector (and a disciple), but Matthew 9:12 is a pretty good verse to explain that God isn't here to just 'collect all the righteous', but to receive those who have admitted their sin and uncleanliness. It is the sick that need a doctor, not the healthy. I also keep saying that I'm going to go to youth group, 我下去會去，我下個禮拜再去。There is one thing that is stopping me, but I just pray that I can cope with it - -" It just saddens me that certain mundane things have leaked into.. yeah.
So I came home, recollected my thoughts, and God is a God of chances, but that doesn't mean I should take advantage over this. 我會記得祂是一位非常非常愛我的神，而我也要表現我的感謝和愛。 = =" And then I started crying while I watched this orchestra on TV play this really nice song in this BEAAUTIFUL music hall. = =" I don't know if my double-jointedness has anything to do with me not playing violin well. I don't think so, but I definitely don't like having extra joints now. However, God has a good reason as to why He gave me extra joints. Soo, I'll see.
Alice - *O* If you're done with the VBS form, I think you should give it to me ASAP heh. Next Sunday is the deadline. And you told me earlier that you thought that as long as people believe in God, that they'll go to Heaven. Basically, I told you no and some other stuff that I don't remember, but I feel like 解釋-ing a bit more. With people that have this belief, it's a bit dangerous? I guess. Because all they do is recognize a God like this, but continue to live their regular lives where it's pretty self-centered, or world-centered? o__o. But recognizing God isn't the same thing as placing Him as #1 in your life. People must strip off everything of themselves- their fortune, their past, their hurts, the happiness on this world in order to become basically God-centered and then to enter Heaven. Because when you get to Heaven, it's just you. You won't need to take any worldy materials or thoughts with you - because God is all you really need. Some people just see God as some almighty being - but can't let go of all the worldly things. There are many things to do and many things you don't have to do to be with your Father for the rest of eternity, but then if I say it on here it'll feel like laundry listing, which Christianity is definitely not based on. Yeeea @______@
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