4.8

Soo I haven't blogged in a while (compared to how often I usually blog). Everything has become so hectic all of a sudden! Especially when I decided to take SATs and sign up for Chamber again - -".... I don't even know why I'm signing up for Chamber. Part of me is telling me that I'm so stupid to even practice, and the other part is just telling me that I'm going to regret it. So whatever. Either way, I waste time.

Life is good and bad? Ish. I don't know if it's just me getting angry easily or the rest of the world just becoming stupider and stupider. I feel like if I blame it on the world, I may be too harsh. But then if I blame it on myself, I'm being too soft. I know my mom was clueless at like 12:30 in the morning. But really? Do you really expect me to be awake at 12:30?! Gosh. I'm locking my doors now.

And I'm not gonna lie, but something is really starting to piss me off. I don't even feel like being around people any more. I don't know if I 想太多, or I'm just becoming cold-hearted and more impatience, or if everyone else is just become 越來越囉唆。 我的心有點提不起來的感覺; the bottom of my stomach feel like it's being twisted again, and ugh. Everyone I know pisses me off now. Gosh I feel like ranting a lot - but this blog wasn't made for so much anger.

Or it could be that I'm running away from my problems. But at the same time, Someone Else is also working around in my life. I guess I'll just continue to look to Him, then.