:[ My reasons for deciding not to try out for orchestra:
1. I suck
2. I really don't have any time to practice (I do, but definitely not enough)
3. 1 APUSH FINALS AND BIO FINALS are during the week of tryouts, and I may have to start studying for SATs again - you never know.
Yea. Basically my present is heavily affecting my future. I hate this. Soo I'm gonna try to take AP Music Theory next year :/ But then my parents are going to be like, what's the point of taking the AP test for that? Well, I donno. I do want to minor in music, so.. eh. It might help I guess. And we're just people, we'll never know what will happen.
I definitely will regret this. But I also have to remind myself that I also have this love of playing piano and guitar too, and I won't give up those two trying to just improve my violin. I do want to improve my violin, but.. I guess switching off between three instruments is kind of stupid too. But D: I love music too much to give up anything musical? I'm not making sense right now - -"
I'm really pissed at myself though. I can't believe 帽子 affected my Friday night of studying for SATs and now I don't even like him anymore. Scores are coming out on Thursday, and I can't not look at them early in the morning. :[ I'm worried but somehow excited at the same time. I just hope I didn't too bad. If I did kind of bad, I know I can improve it a bit. I'm sinking myself down just to a 2000+ x____x... But I don't know :[ What if I don't even make 2000? I hate college board.
Prom is in three days. Should I be excited anymore?
But regarding orchestra, I still will go see their peformances and be in complete awe and know that someday, just not now, I can be as good as some of them.
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