Day 31 + 32

At least it's not threefold xP

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Anyway, Day 31 :]

Family experiences - What did I learn growing up in my family? Well now that I think about it, I don't really know.

Educational experiences - What are my favorite subjects in school? Well, I think math and science are the most meaninful subjects in school, but I don't necessarily like them most of the time :[ ... I like the things that most people would not view as useful.. such as music, language, and photography. Maybe something with language might work :/

Vocational experiences - @囗@ this doesn't really apply to me yet? haha

Spiritual experiences - Most meaningful times with God? :/ I don't know. Well I can't think of any right now but I know I must have had some :?

Ministry experiences - :D I love working with little kids even though I don't know how to = ="....

Painful experiences - D: much much a lot a lot

What God-given ability or personal experience can I offer to my church?
:[ The thing is, I don't know what my God-given ability is, and none of my personal experiences seem useful to offer to my church. At least I can't see any of it.. yet.

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Day 32
(hehe... Warren talks about a square peg in a round hole)

Well the first thought that comes in my mind is that ... is it too early to be thinking of utilizing what God has given me? I know most people would disagree with me, but I really, honestly, truthfully can't find any unique abilities or talents within me... yet.

I really love music, yet I don't have the patience to learn it. Could that basically mean that I don't really love music after all? Compared to learning languages, I am not patient when it comes to not learning it, but at the moment, I can't find anything in my future with learning multiple langauges (I will eventually? :/). And photography may just be a mere hobby, as photography is so subjective and competitive, it isn't really possible that I can actually have a future in the photography field. But then again, only God knows.

Warren says that if we're pushing the limits of ourselves, like trying to change the purpose of what God has given us to use for His ministry, we become frustrated. This gets me thinking to orchestra :[ I rememer freshman-sophomore year, this girl just randomly decided to try out for variations just a few months before the auditions. I mean, realistically speaking, you can't just suddenly start doing something that you've never done before and expect to be good at it in such a short amount of time. For me, though, I've played violin for almost four years... in elementary school - -".. I barely got to the learning the second and third positions, and the songs that little kids play are somewhat difficult for me to play - yet I still want to join orchestra?!!! I don't know, but I love that sort of symphony feeling and all the beautiful harmonies pulling on the strings together. If only I could take part in it, too.

But then again, we weren't made by 'reality', so whatever His will be, let it be done.