[Omygosh I realized how long this is = ="....]
[And obviously my layout/picture changes with my mood x_________x]
So I kind of want to talk about this freshman I saw today.
I went to find Alice in her French classroom near the end of lunch, and the teacher was talking to this student about the student's life. Basically what I heard was that this freshman is kind of completely on her own in the world here, but working hard to strive towards her goals. I don't think she said anything about having real family here, and that her guardians here and her actual family can't actually support her for anything in any way. She said her family members live in Texas, and that the only reason she's in California is for swimming. I'm kind of guessing she has a really good swimming coach somewhere here in the Bay Area, and that the closest school to this coaching place is the most prestigious Monta Vista High School. This basically just adds onto the pressure for her to total up to dealing with swimming, finance problems for herself, and being in a competetive school. Her financial problems, what I heard, was mostly for swimming. I guess she's really good because, she says she needs to travel a lot and even go to international competetions for swimming. However, she needs to pay most of the air and hotel fares for herself. So aside from being a student at MONTA VISTA [that explains homework and tests already] and practicing swimming, she also have to find time to work for money.
I am still extremely in shock D: I would love to her ask her questions but asking strangers these questiosn I would want to ask is really weird - -"
How does she balance all these problems? How are her parents still trying to support her?
Why was she lunch eating by herself in the French classroom? o_____o
:[ haha I really wanted to say 加油 to her but because English is stupid there is no way of saying that = =".
"Hey, add oil!" psh - -"
About yesterday's choir concert, it was okay for a debut. I ended up not being a loner in the audience after all, yay. But then I found out that I missed ORCHESTRA's debut performance. Do you have any idea how much better orechestra is .______.? So yep I'm pretty ticked at myself. I'm checking the MV Tri-M website every now and then, making sure I do not miss any orchestra concerts cause that is my favorite part of the music department. I can't believe I wasted freshman year in choir mostly because of this idiot stoner. It would have been so awesome in orchestra :[
Regarding electives, in freshman year I wanted to take Japanese 1 and C++, and I was contemplating between choir and orchestra.
HOWEVER I BECAUSE OF MY MENTAL ISSUES I STAYED IN CHOIR, and my mom forbid me to go to C++ (but is forcing me to take it next year hell no I'm not going to let her make me have regrets again), and she forced me to take Chinese 3 because it would be an easy A. easy 到 每天 阿腸 狗拉屎 和我 到教室都要睡著了. we didn't do ANYTHINGGGGG = ="
We all should have just gone into AP frosh year and got the FREAKIN CREDITS, STUPID COLLEGEBOARD STUPID MONTA VISTA. THEY JUST DON'T WANT LITTLE PEOPLE TO BE SMART, EH?! The old people just want all the intelligence but aren't intelligent enough that WE are the future leaders of the world, you rotting corpses.
[ this is random but how come even after I 刷牙 I still taste ravioli in my mouth - -]
D: And I was corrected that the first winter percussion practice is next next Tuesday. I would like to be in winter percussion but I hope it would not take too much time :
My grades as of now :[
photo - A+
apush C
bio B
math C? [ I think. Math teacher needs to freakin update. She totally lied about what was going to be on the test.. I am hella pissed off. ]
lit B+ [Freakin prejudiced teacher]
jap A+
Haha well will you look at that. C's and B's in my most important classes. I need at least a 3.833 unweighted. In other words, five A's and one B's. B I'm expecting to be APUSH, haha. So math I need to pay attention at stupid, little details that Mr. Kim would not usually talk about last year [heh] and in lit I guess I have to be a suck up now. APUSH and Bio I just need to concentrate in class and do the readings both classes assigned with no procrastination (unlike today x________x). I miss Mr. Kim and Otto/Combs :[[[[[[[[[[[[
How come sophomore year I had the best math and english teacher and the worst science and history teacher, but this year I have the best history and science teacher yet the worst english and math teacher? :[ I guess that's life's way of balancing things.
By the way thats a 3.5 weighted up there :[
unweighted, it is 3.0 flat :[. Dude next progress report is this friday. Never in my progress reports have I got under a 3.2
Fail.
- 自殺 -
加油加油! :[
I re-activated facebook but with no interest in it anymore haha D;
It's amazing what two weeks can do. I'll just leave it there for the heck of it - -"
I watched Ponyo eight ish times now. And evertyime I watch it I'm catching more and more familiar Japanese phrases :D PONYO IS TOO CUTE >< Why can't she be my little sister :[
Joe Hisaishi is still awesome. I want to meet him someday @______________@
He is the Hayao Miyazaki of music. And Hayao Miyazaki is the Joe Hisaishi of story/movies productions, haha.
Omygosh why do I love music so much :[ ONCE I got home, aside from watching Ponyo like four ish times today, all I did was eat and listen to music. Especially this song from Hisaishi from Totoro called "Tunnel of Wind"? The violin part is beeeautiful~ It's a 白人 playing it o____o. But whatever~ music is music heehee. The 白人 just should show his face he looks really creepy in all black and this 帽子 all casting shadows on himself - -"
Ooh tomorrow I am going with Alice to see Chinese Acrobats! So no one wastes their time and money, hehe.
It didn't rain this week :[. Well it did on Monday, but then I got really emo because of stupid mood swings and the weather and the 囧dude = ="
D: I can't believe the 扯鈴 club got rejected, though [even though I'm not an officer anyway haha]. I really 討厭 that richard dude. I forgot his last name but I am purposely pointing fingers at the richard dude who formed Chinese Club AND Chinese2Monthly which are basically the same thing. If he could take one out then there would be more room for 梅乾's club ideas D: 屁牠 哼哼哼. But then 梅乾 told me she might re-submit it saying ohh this club is only DIABOLO only DIABOLO [American xOx] stuff... which possibly might work.
haha but all I really care about is finding people to perform with Diversity Week :[
and kind of something else but not so much - -"
AHHH and swine flu! X____X omygosh. Though every single person is telling every other single person to get vaccinated, I am so strongly against it. I don't know if I should be though... because religion and science are messing around with my beliefs.
1. I don't know much about the side effects of the vaccine yet.
2. Future generations will be all born from people with artificial immune strength.
I don't know if that's good or bad. Because technically, we can continually make artifical immune strenght for the rest of our lives and have humans live on and on forever. But then for my beliefs it's basically love your neighbors, but hate the world.
xOx 哎呀哎呀哎呀哎呀哎呀哎呀哎呀哎呀哎呀
GENE THERAPY! AHHH X_______________X I AM LEGEND OMYGOSH.
I am going to kill the lab of people who are going to ever do gene therapy. Using viruses to fix cancer cells is a bad idea that's EXACTLY what I AM LEGEND was about - it's a "precursor"? AHHHHHHHHHHH. I hate gene therapy. 中醫 for the win D: I bet there is a natural cure to all this.
Omygosh and I've been twitching in the weirdest places today - - One was where the muscle to squint eyes and the other was the muscle you use your hand to reach backwards with.
hehe about 帽子 = =". ummmmmmm. I'm not that emo anymore? haha D: I get emo over him like once a week and it's dumb because 我又不認識他 x囗x... = = 帽子你為什麼so奇怪 x______________x... haha but I'm still happy of the fact that 他今天有注意到我 today xOx...
stupid CSF 太早收東西 I could have gotten an awesome SAT practice tests book for only $10 :[
-cries-
I have decided to do ONE PRACTICE SAT TEST EVERY WEEKEND. and 背 as much vocabulary as I can :[ . Reading/Vocab are my greatest weaknesses. I should get Mr. 2240 to tutor me @______________@ hahaha.
hehe it's 12:35 D;
so Goodnight I have to go sleep to wake up early to do bio readings 45-49
math homework that macdonald never told us how to do but since she always teaches the homework after we do it I guess I have to stick to this incomprehensible program. Lit I just need to reread Act I because I have nooo clue what's going on.
D; I need to show Yahni this awesome picture from Crossmap.
And I need to find the violin piece to Tunnel of Wind and ask Vicky to play it, haha :[
And if I still want to perform Diversity Week 梅乾 and I really have to start practicing again but do we have time? hahaha nu I don't think so D:
:[ The only way to get through all of this is to be optimistic and have much prayer. But not strange prayers that the Puritans did in the 17th century because they were weird.
WHICH REMINDS ME.
The Bible says that we are not allowed to consume anything that has been used to worship 'other gods'. However, if we do not believe in any other gods, doesn't that mean the worship for them is completely pointless? And that we can possibly consume those things because our faith in God is so strong that those initial purposes were completely of nothing, anyway? So our hearts, minds, and spirits will still be clean because we have no fear of those foods?
Christians are also not allowed to celebrate Halloween. What does celebrating Halloween actually mean? If we dress up and take candy on October 31st, is it commiting a sin? What if we're just dressing up for the fun of it and taking candy for the fun of it, and it shouldn't be of anything devil-like because we know so strongly that God is on our side so that no un-cleansing will happen to us. x_______x. I might actually go to my Church's Harvest Night for the very first time, maybe volunteer for the little kids there, too.
Should I get baptized this year? I'm not sure :[ My mom says that on the day of judgement, all Christians who have been baptized basically have this mark on him, which is the way you know if you rise to Heaven with Jesus or not. But then again, she's only my mom, not the Father. And I've been repeatedly told that being baptizing is not being familiar with Jesus and the Bible, it's the official birth of your spirit walking along with Jesus. xOx I'll think about it. I need to stop oversleeping and staying up late so I can actually go to church, hehe - -"
haha D: It's 12:46 now = =" my gosh. blurblurblurblurblurblurblurb.
Okay I am REALLY going to sleep now.
晚安。
I hope I dream a good dream tonight, as does anyone else! :D
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